Showing posts with label explosions in the sky. Show all posts
Showing posts with label explosions in the sky. Show all posts

Monday, January 26, 2009

Piano Rendition of "The Earth Is Not A Cold Dead Place"


My friend Katie sent me to this, and I think it's pretty badass: a piano version of Explosions In The Sky's opus, The Earth Is Not A Cold Dead Place.

The arrangements are a little bit slowed down, but it's still rather boss, and brought me back to an album that is forever essential.

Download here, and let me know if the link goes bad.

Happy Monday!

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

An Indie Christmas

So here we are: December 24th, 2008.

It's Christmas time again, Charlie Brown. So, to celebrate, here's a little bit of Christmas-y music - just not the carols you'd expect to hear.

I hope you enjoy them, and have a safe and merry holiday!

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1. Day One - Explosions In The Sky
2. Xmas Cake - Rilo Kiley
3. Are You Coming Over For Christmas? - Belle and Sebastian

Thursday, July 17, 2008

The 20 Best Albums Released Since 1970: 10-1

Read about albums 11-20 here.

Kid A10. Kid A - Radiohead
2000
Capitol
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#10 has been quite vexing - before I begin, a brief (and very tangential) history lesson.

This vacancy was first occupied by Taking Back Sunday's phenomenal Tell All Your Friends. The greatest album to come out of the New Jersey/Long Island scene since Glassjaw's Everything You Ever Wanted To Know About Silence? Yes. One of the twenty greatest albums in all of contemporary music? No.

Then I tried Brand New's Deja Entendu, likely the best release of 2003 behind Dear Catastrophe Waitress and The Earth Is Not A Cold, Dead Place. But while I love Brand New with all of my heart (they are probably one of my three favorite bands of all time), it's the same problem as before: on a list that includes the works of the Clash and Modest Mouse, Deja simply can't hold its own.

I had finally settled upon Miles Davis' 1970 opus Bitches Brew when I realized that, although technically meeting the criteria, the album frankly did not uphold the spirit of this piece. It was recorded over three days in 1969, and was very much a product of that decade. Perhaps one day I'll write about Pet Sounds and Sgt. Pepper's and the rest of the 60s - Bitches Brew would certainly be on that list.

What's that? Oh....right! Kid A. Sorry, I have a tendency to digress.

Radiohead has never really charmed me. I like them in the sense that I enjoy playing Creep on Rock Band. I like them in the sense that they helped make Scott Tenorman Must Die the single most hilarious half hour of television I have seen in my life. I like them in the sense that they're name-dropped in that scene in The Brave One where Jodie Foster shoots some guy in the fucking eye (!!). The music, you see, is pretty ancillary. The Bends was about as enjoyable to me as their namesake is to a scuba diver, Hail To The Thief wasn't bad (I guess), the most interesting thing about In Rainbows was its novel distribution, and I frankly think that OK Computer is much ado about nothing - although the consensus is clearly in opposition to that remark, so maybe that's just my problem...whatever. The point is, I find Radiohead to be a lot like cottage cheese: kind of bland, quick to spoil.

Except for Kid A. Dear God, Kid A.

Optimistic puts it best: "Try the best you can / The best you can is good enough". Words fall short of describing the power of this album. I'll try the best I can.

I can't wrap my head around the divisive critical reception this album received in comparison to OK Computer. Yorke's delivery is wistful and yearning, swelling with emotion while the band proper lays down an atmospheric bed that accents the record without overpowering it. The focus is on melody and harmony; on most of the songs, rhythm is an afterthought, if present at all (the most notable exception being the superlative National Anthem). How To Disappear Completely threatens to do just that, as the timid organic accompaniment and nearly-imperceptible percussive shuffle of its first few minutes seem weightless enough to be carried away by a light breeze. The arpeggiating horns at the back of the mix are icing on this sonic cake, the strings tear at your soul as they squeal in anguish with heartfelt sorrow, and the listener is left with what just might be the perfect song.

"I'm not here / This isn't happening," Yorke reassures us - reassures himself - on How To Disappear. Immediately upon the brink of disaster, however, it's suddenly real, as Idioteque warns that "We're not scaremongering / This is really happening." The rest of the record follows in a similar manner: a steady build of tension never completely released; a treatise on paradox and contradiction; an unstable chord which doesn't quite resolve.

On at least ten separate occasions, I've given OK Computer another listen, but it's never been to any avail. Maybe I just have shitty taste?

I'm not too upset though. Kid A is plenty.



Led Zeppelin IV
9. - Led Zeppelin
1971
Atlantic
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The story goes that, in hopes of getting a record deal, Explosions In The Sky gave fellow Austin rockers The American Analog Set a copy of their demo tape. The latter was so enamored of the former's work that they passed along Explosions' demo to the famed instrumental label Temporary Residence, attaching only a note assuring the A&R men that "this totally fucking destroys."

I can't talk about such a storied album as for very long from a critical vantage point without my judgement being clouded by my own highly subjective memories. And even if I tried, the prose would be dull and lifeless, unbefitting of a record of such magnitude. Everybody knows just as well as I do the greatness of classic songs like When The Levee Breaks and Stairway To Heaven. Why should I waste my time with rehash?

The disservice that I do this album increases with every word I type, so I'll keep it brief:

This totally fucking destroys.

There's not much else to say. You all have your own memories of Led Zeppelin's untitled masterpiece - I won't spoil them.



The Lonesome, Crowded West8. The Lonesome, Crowded West - Modest Mouse
1997
Up Records
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From the harsh, jagged angles of Teeth Like God's Shoeshine to the sprawling, nihilistic travelogue of anchor Trucker's Atlas to the fiddle-heavy hoedown of closer Styrofoam Boots/It's All Nice On Ice Alright, it is apparent that there is nothing at all quite like Modest Mouse's breakthrough 1997 double LP The Lonesome, Crowded West.

Even before this record, the Issaquah trio had a knack for writing tunes that were simultaenously world-weary and restless, but The Lonesome, Crowded West's release marked the first time that they were able to craft something more than just a collection of songs. The whole was now greater than the sum of its parts; Modest Mouse had released an album.

The title of this album says it all: the songs all deal to some degree with that sensation of feeling alone in a crowd - like that Jack's Mannequin song, only better! Some of them sound like diary entries. Doin' The Cockroach's narrator doesn't believe in heaven or Hell, but his daily commute on the train or the bus or whatever sure feels like both. On Polar Opposites, he's "trying to drink away the part of the day [he] cannot sleep away", and Trucker's Atlas's stream-of-consciousness reads like William Faulkner's drunken LiveJournal posts. Other tracks are character studies: Cowboy Dan, a pornographer, even Jesus Christ - they all get treatment.

The best songs, however, lie somewhere in the middle. The wrenching Trailer Trash is a lesson in economy, a minimal arrangment of tercets and couplets, a portrait of divorcees and drunks, an ode to drop-outs and rejects. The picture Bankrupt On Selling paints is bleaker yet: the angels and apostles have sold us out for a ring and some sandals. In light of this, Styrofoam Boots arrives at the conclusion that "God takes care of himself, and you of you."

Even without such an explicit statement, though, the album's message is self-evident: "Nobody's running this whole thing."



Wish You Were Here7. Wish You Were Here - Pink Floyd
1975
EMI / Capitol
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I am a wholly inadequate and biased source of information when it comes to this album, or any other one by Pink Floyd. When you listen to one band nonstop for a year, you sort of lose your objectivity. Of course you like some songs better than others, and you spin certain records more often than the rest, but it's hard to choose an absolute "favorite".
I have a lot of favorite Floyd albums. This could be Dark Side of the Moon. Who cares? I could've chosen Meddle or Animals, and have still been satisfied. It doesn't really matter - this is Pink Floyd as it was in the 1970s, after Syd Barrett's psychedelic turn at the helm and before Roger Waters' reign of terror. You're going to like it or you're not; I can't really control that.

The best I can tell you is to go and listen to Shine On You Crazy Diamond, and let the music speak for itself.



London Calling6. London Calling - The Clash
1979
CBS
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Certain members of the press in the 70s and 80s deemed the Clash to be "the only band that matters". I don't think they could have been more right.

The Clash "got" the idea behind punk better than any of their contemporaries - they got that choosing the three-chord, sub-two-minute structure and sticking with it, or focusing exclusively upon guitar, drum, and bass, were as decidedly un-punk as anything that the prog-rock community (the movement punk was created to oppose) could come up with. There's a difference between being a punk band and making punk music, and the Clash exemplified this distinction to the fullest extent.

When Topper Headon, Mick Jones, Paul Simonon, and Joe Strummer stepped out onto the stage or into the booth, they were frankly without peer. Dub, hip-hop, reggae, rockabilly, bluegrass, soul, dance, "world", jazz, lounge, pop, rock, grunge, and disco: all fair game. London Calling is arguably the greatest album by the only band that mattered, but don't be fooled into thinking that it is, by analogue, the only album that matters. Sandinista!, Combat Rock, and Black Market Clash are all leagues above the Pistols, Ramones, the Buzzcocks, or whatever other "punk" bands you can name. Think of London Calling as a gateway drug to the Clash's venerable discography, and you'll be in the right frame of mind.

A band like this deserve a better treatment than this, I know. But I'm just not feeling it, and Cormac McCarthy, Joyce Carol Oates, and Chinua Achebe declined to fill in for me. Bastards. Joe Strummer must be rolling over in his grave.



Lift Your Skinny Fists Like Antennas To Heaven5. Lift Your Skinny Fists Like Antennas To Heaven - Godspeed You! Black Emperor
2000
Constellation
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Godspeed You! Black Emperor have the typical instruments: drums, guitar, bass. Then they have some less common ones (for "rock" music, at least): violin, cello, viola, horns. But where exactly can one mention Fringe preachers, reflections on Coney Island, ARCO ampm, French children, and locomotives on the liner notes?

Lift Your Skinny Fists Like Antennas To Heaven's massive influence on music can be seen right away by the fact that two bands (Canyons of Static and Antennas To Heaven) are named after material found on this release. Even indie rockers Manchester Orchestra namedrop this album on their song Play It Again Sam!, for crissakes! And that's not even to mention the fact that the vast majority of so-called post-rock bands making music in the slow build/furious release paradigm owe their sound to this album, and f♯a♯∞ before it.

One valid criticism of Godspeed is that they lack the gift of brevity. The songs run their course over 18 to 23 minutes each. But while there are definitely highlights, moments of musical bliss that stand out among the rest, I would not recommend skipping straight to them: without the dramatic build, there can be no satisfying payoff. If you don't have 80 minutes free, then don't start to listen to this album. It begs - nay, demands - to be digested in one sitting.

Some of those highlights? How about the triumphant horns that start the album on Storm, that crazy fringe preacher talking about the "heavenly man, the heavenly woman", the middle of Antennas To Heaven, where the floor just drops out, and the entire 23 minutes of Sleep? Those are some of my favorites.

This was, and still is, the best album Godspeed You! Black Emperor ever released. Given their current "indefinite hiatus", it probably will retain that honor well into the future.



In The Aeroplane Over The Sea4. In The Aeroplane Over The Sea - Neutral Milk Hotel
1998
Merge
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Does the world need more concept albums? In general, probably not.

Does the world need more concept albums about plans to go back in time to save Anne Frank and make gentle, passionate love to her? To quote The 40 Year Old Virgin, "I'm sorry, was that a serious question?"

Have you ever heard In The Aeroplane Over The Sea before?

You loved it? Great, me too! Scroll down and read about If You're Feeling Sinister, because there's nothing here you don't already know.

You didn't like/"get" it? Stop reading. Go listen to it again. Listen to it again and again and again until you do like it - trust me, you will eventually. It took me three years to find the right combination of open-mindedness and really-fucking-depressed-ness, but I became a Jeff Mangum convert in the spring of '07, and haven't looked back since.

You've never heard it? Ah, then this is for you. Same advice as above, but with a little bit more guidance. Listen to The King Of Carrot Flowers Pts. II & III, and try not to screw up your face in a "WTF?" pose as Mangum wails "I love you Jesus Cuhhhhri-ee-i-ist! Jeeeeesus Christ I lo-ove you, yes I dooo-oo-oo-oooooo." Go ahead and play Holland, 1945, and see if you can do it without dancing or clapping or snapping or tapping your toes, or at least something. I defy you. When Communist Daughter starts raving about semen-stained mountaintops and the epic Oh Comely finds Mangun crooning about Anne Frank's ovaries, make every attempt not to crack a smile. Instead, save that smile for when Two Headed Boy Pt. II reaches its dramatic climax, declaring that "God is a place you will wait for the rest of your life", and see how that works out for you.

Having a hard time? Congratulations. You officially "get" Neutral Milk Hotel. Now go and listen to it again and again and again. You'll thank me later.



If You're Feeling Sinister
3. If You're Feeling Sinister - Belle & Sebastian
1996
Jeepster
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Belle & Sebastian are a bit like The Stars of Track and Field about which they sing: famous to those who follow the sport -or "scene" (God, I hate that word) - but largely unfamiliar to the world at large. What a crime.

Many critics feel that this was the apex of Belle & Sebastian's life as a band. I'd tend to disagree. If You're Feeling Sinister remains the highlight of a long and prolific career, yes, but it hasn't been all downhill since. Dear Catastrophe Waitress is easily one of their top two or three releases, and Fold Your Hands Child, You Walk Like A Peasant, while loathed by most, had some of their best material on it. But the problem that all albums (save Sinister) released before Dear Catastrophe Waitress had in common was that they were plagued by a single song that really killed the momentum and brought down the disc. Electronic Rennaisance, Chickfactor, Beyond The Sunrise: here's looking at you.

But we're not talking about any of those albums that are "one of their best" or contain "some of their strongest songs". We're talking about If You're Feeling Sinister, which is the best work containing the best songs. Get Me Away From Here, I'm Dying is three minutes of perfection, the title track is a literate and poignant narrative (vintage B&S), and Judy And The Dream Of Horses ties it all up with a wistfully melanchonic ribbon.

What else is there to be said? There is no better introduction to the world of independent pop music. End of story.



The Moon & Antarctica2. The Moon & Antarctica - Modest Mouse
2000
Epic
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Does this list really need two Modest Mouse albums on it?

Absolutely. In fact, there is a strong case to be made for the inclusion of a third (Building Nothing Out Of Something). But if I had to choose one Modest Mouse album to listen to for the rest of my life, there is absolutely no question which one I would keep.

The Moon & Antarctica is Modest Mouse's crowning achievement, and it is unlikely to be topped - if I were to revisit this list in another 40 years, I am quite confident that The Moon's ranking would be safe. Ignore that number '2' in boldface next to the title at the top, because The Moon & Antarctica is as much the greatest album of the last fourty years as The Earth Is Not A Cold, Dead Place. I guess I just have fonder memories associated with the latter, and I hope Isaac Brock & Co. will forgive my shortcomings.

Every concept, regardless of the medium in which it is realized - film, essay, painting, album - has a main idea, a thesis. On The Lonesome, Crowded West, that thesis was explicated in the record's stunning closer with the conclusion that "No one's running this whole thing." The Moon & Antarctica is more up-front: the first words of the album are "Everything that keeps me together is falling apart." An hour later, Brock revises. "The one thing you taught me about human beings is this / They ain't made of nothing but water and shit!"

Self reliance here is key. In Dark Center of the Universe, Brock is "pretty damn sure that anyone can equally easily fuck you over". If people are really made of nothing more than water and shit (clever wordplay belied by its crassness), then when everything that keeps us together falls apart, surely we can't rely on them to do anything but that: fuck us over. God's not the answer either, as I Came As A Rat observes that He will "stick it to you", first chance He gets. No salvation there.

Indeed, nothing created by society is a salvation for Isaac Brock, be it God or work or love or friendship. It wouldn't surprise me if he was a Transcendentalist, as the only salvation cited - outside of ourselves - is in unspoiled nature, barren and desolate. To this end, the album takes the same ideas as The Lonesome, Crowded West, albeit with more existential angst, and develops them further. The protaganist of Trucker's Atlas tried to escape modern life with a zig-zagging cross-country jaunt; now Brock aims a bit further off, to the moon and Antarctica. The anti-urban themes of Paper Thin Walls and A Different City will be instantly familiar to anybody versed in the gospel of Cowboy Dan. And gone are the days when Brock tried to drink away the part of the day he couldn't sleep away - on Tiny Cities Made Of Ashes he's put down the bourbon bottle and switched to "drinking Coca Cola" as the world crumbles before his eyes, surely the work of a God taking a chance to stick to him.

It's not all God's fault though, and society isn't always to blame either - sometimes the burden is squarely upon ourselves. On Lives, he groans, "My hell comes from inside myself / Why fight this?" - nihilism at its best. He's not perfect either, and despite his philosophy to the contrary, makes attempts to connect to other people. Life Like Weeds laments the lost opportunities for Brock to tell others how he feels ("I wish I could have told you I love you"), and Alone Down There finds him yearning to provide somebody with company, with comfort, belying what 3rd Planet described as his "only art of fucking people over". After all, Brock is an "anyone", so certainly he is not exempt from Dark Center's edict.

In the end though, none of that really has much to do with enjoying The Moon & Antarctica. The thick rhythm section; the warped, overdubbed guitars; the sinister, menacing yelp of Brock's delivery: those are far more likely candidates to sway your opinion on this album. The concept is, frankly, just gravy.

I love this album. You might not. But we're all of full of shit anyway, so what's the difference?



The Earth Is Not A Cold Dead Place1. The Earth Is Not A Cold Dead Place - Explosions In The Sky
2003
Temporary Residence Limited
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I think it's only fitting that an album with no words leaves me speechless.

I've already reviewed this album here, but that amounts to little more than a long-form diary entry, really. What I wrote there was admittedly a bit of a cop-out, less a critical review than a cathartic release at the expense of what is, to me, the greatest album of all time.

But maybe it wasn't. Maybe that review was indicative of the fact that much of this album's appeal lies in the fact that its content cannot be objectively analyzed, and its wholly subjective, emotional connection is what keeps me coming back for more time and time again. I've long thought First Breath After Coma to be the most beautiful piece of music ever committed to tape; it seems that Your Hand In Mine is a not-so-distant second.

For me, this release has achieved paradoxical status: a record that is so overwhelming in its greatness, I am sometimes hesitant to listen to it, for fear of overplaying it. I always manage to overcome my reluctance, but I am still scared of what might happen:

I am terrified that one day, the three minute mark of First Breath After Coma will fail to evoke picturesque memories of the clouds parting on a stormy June morning, God himself telling me that things would be okay; that the dynamics of Six Days At The Bottom Of The Ocean will no longer excite, the music instead sinking into the background like the Kursk into the icy depths; that somehow, Your Hand In Mine will cease to be the perfect ending to this album, its note of hope washed out, eroded by overexposure to the elements. I am terrified that one day, this will be just another record in my iTunes library, devoid of any meaning.

But until that day comes, this is the only CD I will ever need.


Wednesday, July 09, 2008

Explosions In The Sky - The Earth Is Not A Cold Dead Place

2003
Temporary Residence Limited
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10/10

Best of 2003

June 2, 2007

“Everything is going to be okay.”

Walking out of room 401 on a dreary Saturday morning, my SAT II completed, I couldn't help but notice that this was like a scene out of a movie: the sky had been overcast, grey remnants of the massive storm that flooded St. Petersburg the night before, when all of a sudden, the clouds parted to reveal a brilliant sun shining with the intensity of a trillion-trillion incandescent bulbs. Like any self-respecting rising senior in high school, I was accompanied by the ubiquitous iPod, its capacity triple the amount of music in my library, and right then, it was playing me a song.

It was playing me a song so perfect, so fitting, that any chance of ever obtaining an objective, critical appreciation of it was instantly thrown out the window. The strings were plucked delicately as a kick drum beat out the pulse of a human heart, the pulse of my heart; another guitar joined in, dancing, twinkling in its minor key; a rudimentary snare roll finally made its way onto the scene, a sound, military in any other context, instead coming off as serene and peaceful. Perhaps peaceful is the wrong word to use, as it denotes something passive; rather, the sound of the drum was pacifistic, so active was the separation from its militant demesne.

Last night was wonderful: I saw a brilliant Judd Apatow comedy with a beautiful girl, and after, the sky poured forth a massive torrent that seemed to wash away the past, the complications, the self-imposed barricade that had stopped me from “just fucking kiss”-ing her. It was summer, I was cleansed, I was happy.

The track reached its apex and the clouds came back. This was real life, after all, and not a dream. The sky would not stay bright forever. But that sun shone brilliantly for 9 minutes and 33 seconds, and hope sprang. The song was First Breath After Coma; the album The Earth Is Not A Cold Dead Place; the artist Explosions In The Sky.

Everything was going to be okay.

June 22, 2007

The second official day of summer found me at work, like I had been for the last 4 weeks, and would be for the next five. The pay was decent ($10.50 an hour), and the conditions were certainly reasonable, my time split between a rather spacious cubicle and an isolated, enclosed server room from which I “did tech support stuff” (this generally amounted to talking on AIM, reading Pitchfork, or browsing Digg). Nepotism got me this job a year ago, my mother working two floors up, but it was my own mediocrity that earned me an invitation back. I was supposed to be learning, just a lowly intern, and yet the only thing the last 2 summers had taught me was that I had no desire whatsoever to work in the Information Technology sector. Everybody seemed to hate their cushy support-desk jobs, and constantly bitched about this fact, all day, every day. Whenever this happened, I would retreat to the sanctuary of the server room to dial up some instrumental music on Pandora and forget the world. On this particular day, the internet decided to play me The Only Moment We Were Alone – an interesting choice:

The only moment we were alone was three weeks ago, and I haven’t seen her since. Now she’s on a plane to New England. Little do I know – little does she know, really – that while there she will meet the boy she thinks is the love of her life. A voicemail is my only memento (“I wanted you to be the last person I called from Florida!”), and I am alone in my resolve that things will all work out.

Everything will be okay.

November 6, 2007

“I want you to listen to something.”

“No, I just want to go inside.”

“But I really think you m-“

“No, I don’t feel like being anywhere today but in bed, in the dark. Alone.”

“Look, I know you’re sad, I know he broke your heart, I know how you-“

“No! Don’t tell me you know how I feel! How dare you tell me that you know how I feel!”

“Oh right, because you have the monopoly on broken hearts, is that it?”

She jumps out of my dark blue 2003 Nissan Maxima, and with an “I hate you!” slams the door in fury.

The song I so wanted her to hear was one that had both haunted and uplifted me for months. Haunting, because through its ups and downs, its peaks and troughs, its loud and soft dynamics was chronicled the tragedy of the Russian submarine Kursk, a vessel that sank in the Barents Sea (all 118 lives were lost); uplifting, because it always had a way of making my “troubles” seem small in comparison.

He broke her heart, she’s breaking mine.

Still, it might all be okay.

December 2, 2007

It is 1:16 on a Sunday morning, and I am driving home from her house. There is hope: things are like they were six months ago, and I am steadfast in my determination to not “be an asshole and fuck everything up”. Unlike six months ago, the song in the background is completely antithetical to the moment.

Memorial? A memorial for what? Whose death am I mourning? I’m happy. I’m fucking happy. I’m really fucking happy!

Well, maybe it’s honoring something of monument – a sign of reverence, not grief. I guess it would be self-centered to say that recent developments were monumental per se (at least not to anyone but us). Still, they’re at least worthy of some note, if not a full-blown memorial.

This seems like a bit of a stretch, even to me. I settle for the fact that Steve Jobs is not psychic, and thus his product can’t always conjure up a number that fits perfectly within life’s running soundtrack.

I don’t even know what ‘it’ is, but I swear to God I’m going to do it right this time.

Everything isn’t going to be okay; everything already is okay.

December 26, 2007

On the day after Christmas, I drove up to my friend John’s house. She was back up north for the holidays, so I didn’t have anywhere else to go. Plus, I really wanted to play Rock Band, which John had received from Santa the day before.

Tuckered out from 6 hours of strumming and drumming, we relocated our two-person party to the Hooters five minutes from his house, delighting in the voluptuous women and bounty of greasy chicken. The night was young, so for further amusement we travelled downtown to catch No Country For Old Men. It was, of course, excellent (It won ‘Best Picture’ at the Oscars, for Christ’s sake!) But the focus was on the coming attractions, specifically a trailer for The Diving Bell and the Butterfly.

“This looks fruity, a bit too artsy for my tastes,” I opined.

“Yeah, I know what you mean…” agreed John, “Hey, wait a minute…that song!”

“Hm?”

“Is that…is that Explosions In The Sky?”

“I-I think it is! That’s Your Hand In Mine.”

It's been weeks since I last felt your hand in mine, and that's entirely too long. I know I screwed up, but, Jesus, nobody loves you more than I do. Just be with me!

Be. With. Me.

I suddenly possessed a strange desire to see this film which seconds before had held no appeal – such was the swaying power of a song so overwhelming in its, for want of a larger vocabulary, beauty. Our heroes of West Texas could not have prayed for a better way to close their magnum opus.

We’ve always been alright before, there’s no reason why we won’t be alright this time. Everything’s going to be okay. Everything’s going to be okay. Everything’s going to be okay.

Everything’s going to be okay.

July 5, 2008

It’s summer, which means she’s in New England, again. Things never worked out, and I guess they’re not going to. It’s moot anyway, because I’m leaving in little over a month for college in upstate New York, and she’s still got her senior year of high school down here in good old Florida. Soon we’ll lose touch, she’ll forget about me, and I, in turn, her. I guess everything will be okay after all, albeit for different reasons than I had anticipated.

Those four Texans were right: the Earth is not dead. It is, in fact, alive. It is not, however, alive with the glory of love, as Max Bemis might have you believe.

No, it is alive with people, with human beings, their pulse regulated not by bass pedals, but by beating hearts. It is alive with coworkers, nagging and moaning and complaining about their lot in life, content to nag and moan and complain and not do a god damn thing about it. It is alive with incurable dreamers, the eternal optimists who interpret the break in the clouds as hope, see the sun as a message of perseverance, and will themselves to believe that everything will turn out okay in the end, despite all evidence to the contrary. It is alive with girls, using their issues as both a crutch and an excuse, willing to lead you on, string you along, and ultimately break your heart without a second thought. The Earth is alive.

The Earth is not a cold, dead place.



Key tracks:

All of them.

1. First Breath After Coma
2. The Only Moment We Were Alone
3. Six Days At The Bottom Of The Ocean
4. Memorial
5. Your Hand In Mine
(Click to download)